Mother's Day for a Foster Child

Satan!!!!

Hi all. This weekend a holiday honoring all mothers has just passed. Mother's Day. A wonderful day to celebrate your mom. As you all might know, I am a former foster child. I have been in foster care my whole life. Obviously up until I turned 18. I met my biological mother for the first time 3 years ago. Prior to that, I never knew her and still don't. My father I also never met and is also deceased. What does Mother's Day mean to me? Hmmmmmm. Well I can't say I take it seriously nowadays. If I've never had a mother figure, obviously I can't honor the holiday. Or the idea of having a mother anyway. Especially since most of the "mothers" around me are a joke. Going to the bar and dropping the kids off at grandma's is what Mother's Day has turned into these days. This entry is not for you to feel sorry for me by the way. This is the point of view of someone who didn't have parents. It is a blank feeling. It's a void that can't be filled. I want other foster children or orphans to feel like they can relate to someone. That they are not alone. Foster children really go through so much. They want love and acceptance but at the same time, they don't know how to handle those kind of feelings that they never felt from birth. I'm very sensitive to when I see horrible parents. I do not take a mother serious, who uses their children as dolls to play dress up with because they want something to do. I do not take a mother seriously when they are looking for attention through their child. I work multiple jobs to pay my bills and keep a roof over my head. Do I get an award for that? No. Because that is what I am suppose to do. So bragging about taking care of your child doesn't get you a reward either. Your child is the reward. No I am not a mother. So I don't know what the hardships of motherhood are like personally. But I was a child. A motherless one. So I know what that part feels like. I was a child of someone who didn't wanna take up the responsibility of being a mother. Again, don't feel sorry please. I have turned out fine in my book. So I worship the devil and my eye comes out. Who cares? But I just wanna say, Happy Mother's Day, to the mothers who are doing just that. HUMBLY Mothering their child. It's not a competition. And thank you foster and adoptive mothers who took in someone else's responsibility and sincerely love the child. This is Mother's Day for a foster child.

Spider 😈😈😈

Another one of THOSE days

Hola and Ave Satana!!

Today is another one of those days where I don't want to deal with life outside of my spider clown fantasy world. I have been dealing with bullies, responsibilities, and a couple of hardships. When I'm in Voodoo Satan Spider Clownville, none of that really exists. Have you ever met someone that was mad at you for being optimistic, energetic, or happy? Well I did. Or have you ever been to so many different places, like a job or school or a neighborhood, and there's always that group of people that treat you like shit just because you are you? It's fucking ridiculous really. Those qualities would be things you would actually think is something that people would appreciate. I'm here to tell you, they won't always be. The best thing to do is block negative cunt faces out of your life and mind. And perhaps put a satanic voodoo spell on them like I do. Or if you aren't capable, just do the first thing. There is such a short time before the end of the world, that I am focused more on fun things. Things that I wanna do for the rest of my short life. When in doubt, just imagine everyone as a talking fruit or vegetable like I do. It works. Until next time Readers (of which there are none). Hail Satan. Real Satan. 😈😈

Spider 🎃🎃🎃🎃