Mother's Day for a Foster Child

Satan!!!!

Hi all. This weekend a holiday honoring all mothers has just passed. Mother's Day. A wonderful day to celebrate your mom. As you all might know, I am a former foster child. I have been in foster care my whole life. Obviously up until I turned 18. I met my biological mother for the first time 3 years ago. Prior to that, I never knew her and still don't. My father I also never met and is also deceased. What does Mother's Day mean to me? Hmmmmmm. Well I can't say I take it seriously nowadays. If I've never had a mother figure, obviously I can't honor the holiday. Or the idea of having a mother anyway. Especially since most of the "mothers" around me are a joke. Going to the bar and dropping the kids off at grandma's is what Mother's Day has turned into these days. This entry is not for you to feel sorry for me by the way. This is the point of view of someone who didn't have parents. It is a blank feeling. It's a void that can't be filled. I want other foster children or orphans to feel like they can relate to someone. That they are not alone. Foster children really go through so much. They want love and acceptance but at the same time, they don't know how to handle those kind of feelings that they never felt from birth. I'm very sensitive to when I see horrible parents. I do not take a mother serious, who uses their children as dolls to play dress up with because they want something to do. I do not take a mother seriously when they are looking for attention through their child. I work multiple jobs to pay my bills and keep a roof over my head. Do I get an award for that? No. Because that is what I am suppose to do. So bragging about taking care of your child doesn't get you a reward either. Your child is the reward. No I am not a mother. So I don't know what the hardships of motherhood are like personally. But I was a child. A motherless one. So I know what that part feels like. I was a child of someone who didn't wanna take up the responsibility of being a mother. Again, don't feel sorry please. I have turned out fine in my book. So I worship the devil and my eye comes out. Who cares? But I just wanna say, Happy Mother's Day, to the mothers who are doing just that. HUMBLY Mothering their child. It's not a competition. And thank you foster and adoptive mothers who took in someone else's responsibility and sincerely love the child. This is Mother's Day for a foster child.

Spider 😈😈😈